I love you as much as I can
as much I have left
someone said
it is OK not to love your mom
I am not a monster
nor glutton
just as much as I can
I do no want to be a savior any more
or a picture in the closet
waters bearing your grievances

love is not coin
nor bargain or weight
I want to be myself here now
with my rather awry fingers
my everyday hair
not as you like it
my adult brat clothing
and all the rest
including laughin' cryin'
and all that was left inside me
for you