inside his fears
faceless faces
his pen can not
draw
he has less teeth than a tiger/
and his voice is higher than his
"love is everyone else's surrender"/
but it's his
without tasting happiness
one must go crazy first
the big fella's valuable garment is his breath/doesn't know
hoped to be happy/always searched in booze bottles/
empty glass were his hopes
his thoughts were rolling
and he locked himself in a box
not his mistakes/ but his regrets are going to be his enemy
the big fella is not aware
his kisses smell of raki*and nicotine
at daylight he weaves seamless arguments/
at night he cannot find his way
his feet drag him
to Yuksek Kaldirim'a (to the Red Zone)
as if one part of him was relieved/
the other part was screaming turn the light on
just to make himself believe in the existence of the world/
makes love in the dark with the prostitutes
and gets bitten by a dog
with his big talent/and his small smile
sacrifices himself
doesn't know the one who waits for him how she is waiting/
at night troubled and feverish
like a child
drives his anger inside the dark city roads
cannot find his way home
gazes at his woman's nipples/the woman's heart is full of anger
but hides it don't show it to her man
big fella denies...
he has made the wrong decision
and the beauty he denied
the pearls pour from the inner corner of the tiny woman's eye
big fella don't care
the moon becomes angry
by tearing her lace's
hitting big fella with her light
even his shadow disappears
still didn't learn it's value..!

...pockets full of keys, doesn't own anything no more...
can not think.

*raki=turkish ouzo

Gunsel Djemal 23/2/2010 London

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the moon gets angry at the man
his pockets are full of keys
will unlock the world incomprehensible
nobody is asking why he is drinking
not a problem
if he is only going to loose his keys
friends are suspicious
neither his ending is important
it will end one day
anyhow
but he never cheated on
his woman
even if not believed
he believes in himself
couldn't care less
the man knows himself
never...
cheated on his tiny woman.

Attila Elustun 23/2/2010 Istanbul