I recognised your face last night in another mirror, thus I remembered how I used to take care of innocence, make it disappear when the sun started to slowly burn. Still, while I was dreaming, for the first time, I cheated on your image, maybe it’s the last 3 weeks that burden me, maybe it’s the lack of inspiration, maybe the assurance that you no longer need anything from my behalf. I might have passed you on, from my point of view, you slipped away, you did whatever your head & heart desired and left me out in the open. That’s ok, it’s gonna fly away soon enough. Just to let myself know… enjoy everything while it lasts, while you can take advantage of it, while you can breathe in and out without concrete to stop you.

I believe that in other circumstances I would have said: “I miss you, but it would hurt less if I knew you missed me too”, not now. Cause for sure you don’t, for sure I won’t and this… is just another episode of a lost life.

Who cares what it’s all about? It doesn’t matter anymore. I’ve lost hope in everything and that made me take a decision. The sky will be my new home, the earth, just a shadow I once knew with people who love, hate, get revenge when something doesn’t go their way….and many others. It’s best…for me. The first time… it’s not about us anymore, but about me… However, this shall be the case only the moment I will go for it, not at this precise moment. Take advantage of my curly hair, blue eyes, kindness, love and softness, hugs and everything for it won’t last long… just a few weeks from now… I’ll begin to stop dreaming.

Sunday, 16 December 2007
15:24:31