I was nobody’s friend
When I woke up one morning
Strange head rested upon
The crumpled pillow
Next to mine.
Unclenched thirst and
Queer memories foreboding
In the air
Of a past night
When that half-opened mouth
Flattered my vanity.
I knew I would do it again
Sometimes
It’s just that sometimes
Happened so soon
That the latter incident
Didn’t get to grow fainter.
Obsessive images of me
Entangled in foreign arms
Peel it off this monochrome slide!
I tried to stop its recurrence
And force myself
Into different
Technicolor day dreams
But I still had the ink taste in my mouth –
Tattoos and pierced belly buttons.
Burning faced and dry-eyed
I tried to swallow
But
Only managed to choke
Sweltering in those
Punishing sheets
Tightened up around my body
Like a funeral veil.
I tried to heave myself up
Swarms of flies down my body
Muffling a desperate charm…
Bring it back to where it was yesterday!